16-11-2022 00.08

 Hello guys,

A long time has no seen... It is my birthday today. I have been in my own bubble lately. A lot of things have happened. I feel like I had so much to say in the last years I did not feel empty. But it is like, I have realized that no one is going to understand you even though when you speak out loud, so what is the point to talk out loud.

I am somehow, a complicated version, still in contact with my so-called ex who is married. I want to cut it and move on, but I am trying to heal and gather the strength to kick everything out of my brain about him. I just want to live my own life, with family and friends contact. Nothing more. One thing I have realized is the person that is in your life if they do not benefit from you - would not remember anything about you or be near you.

The clock is 11.11:

I forgot to close this chapter and rewrite it, but I am going to continue. I do not want anything anymore, I do not need anything from anyone. I just want my peace, love and good energy to be kept. I do not want to surround myself with people I cannot effort the energy to be with. I am in no interest to be in an environment where they or I do not serve any good. I am happy with being by myself and living life with myself and the handful of people that I have in my life. I do not compete with anyone, nor do I wish to have another life. I do wish to reach the life goals that I have, and I do wish to see everyone that I know and I do not know see them winning.

The sky is grey, and it took me a while to get up from my bed and come to school. In two hours I have a meeting with my supervisor about my master's, and I did forget one of the earlier meetings with my supervisor. I can feel it is going to be a very chill and quiet day. I only want it to be peaceful with only positive energy and a calming aura.

Thank you, God, for blessing me with this life, with all the flaws and imperfections. It has been a hell of a journey, but I am looking forward to seeing what there is in my path. I want to thank every soul, that has been with me through my journey to shape me the way I am. I am differently not finished yet, but I trust the journey and the process, and most importantly I trust God. So let's see for now.

Happy Birthday little me 16 years old, I am now 26 with these things in my baggage - I hope you are proud of me.