15-09-2022 11.27

 Hey guys,

I can feel the weather getting colder... Autumn is on its way.

The thing is, right now I am sitting at my desk at my school - and started on my master's. But you know they say that life is full of surprises. I will not say I am beginning to be more isolated, but it feels like this. I feel alone, not that it is a bad thing - life is really beautiful, full of colors and joy. 

When I was a little girl, I had a lot of dreams about my future... That when I am getting older, I will be successful and graduate. I am with my husband and have a family of my own. I am living in this huge house, where I am cooking food for my family of five. My husband, three kids, and me. And that everyone was happy... I dreamed that I and my husband will rule the world together, rule our own world .. and my family is happy.

But reality check... I have been through my worst heartbreak - with a guy I have known since I was 19. I have had ups and down, and my physical and psychological health has been constantly on edge. I am broke, barely making it - but I am surviving. I am fighting to get my degree in the house, so I can catch a breath after. I am living alone, and thank God I am independent. My family is there for me... I got frighting to dream big or have dreams of my own. Now I am at a stage where I am just. numb. But I am not giving up, even though I have no energy left.