15-04-2022 19.04

 Letter to you,

Dear my previous love,

I just hope that you are doing okay, and you are happy. I am sitting in the middel of my university and I am about to enter an exam sunday. It is an 48 hours exam, and on tuesday it will be my exams day where I have to sit in a room and write in 6 hours. Lately, or for a long .. actually since you got engaged I have been struggling to accept the reality of, it is for sure is finally over between us. We have had battles in six years on and off - which was literally poison for both of us. I want to say, you are still my bestfriend in my mind, my daily person to think about and my night person to sleep to. I know you are engaged to married soon, and I should stop thinking or have an obsession or the need to know how you are, what you are doing - trust me I am working on my self to let you. But you know, you have been my person every day for the last 6 years, it is not easy for me to make you as my past person. But you know, life will make me to end it soon and the nature will run its course.

I do not know if I miss him or just I am just still in love with my memories, because I am still not ready yet to let go 100%.