11-04-2022 12.16

 So where am I right now?

This is a huge and broad question. I do not even know where to start. From my university perspective, I have en 48 hours exams - that I yet cannot pull myself together to start, but I have to. And currently, I am sitting at my internship workplace aint its basement all alone and thinking. I have moved place from my old to a new place. I had my own drama with it, but thank god most of it is in its place. I love my work, nothing to comment on that front. From my personal perspective, there is a lot of thing that I am done talking about because now I just have to suck it up. 

To be honest guys, I do feel alone all the time, not in a bad way - but in a way that I rather not trust people. Because for them to show you their true color, is a matter of time and a situation.

I wished a lot of things were different. Such as my ex not being my ex, so that I did not have to go through emotional pain and trauma. And that my family was more stable. And that I had friends that I could count on, but it is okay - I do not need it anymore.

I am blessed to see positive energy around me with a positive magnitude/attitude and just full of life.

I really want my own family soon. Where I can raise my babies, and have a happy privat family - just me my partner and my babies. I do not wish to have a huge or a big circle. I do not wish to have everything, as long my family is stable happy, and my closest circle is are happy and healthy.

I really want my family soon, with the right partner.