I thought about writing here .. I looked at the clock it was 18.18 o'clock.
Damn.. You guys, a lot can happen unexpectedly. I am looking a lot at the tarot reading, and everywhere I was searching and looking for different answers, they told me that the truth will be revealed to me. And time came by, I was like I have done nothing or I do not expect anything from anyone to wait for the truth to be revealed. But suddenly, my ex lover had found her ex flirt and was about to marry her .. and suddenly the boy that I did met, not that anything happened or anything, but he helped me to open my eyes for many things, by giving me perspective .. I felt a time of something in a form of .. 'okay', if you get me, that does not mean I am going insane.. I felt a connection in a way, that he could bring my inner old child on the front and not to be afraid of anything, and that people will accept me by expressing myself - and I am forever grateful that he helped me through it. But then I found out he has girlfriend .. Yeah guys, I thought nothing could surprise me anymore, I am just in chok. Not that he owes me to tell me about his life, but when we talk we were more than coach and client, we were friends.. talked about privat stuff and all that, but I could not feel that he had a girlfriend, he never EVER indicated that he is not an available man. Not that I care, but I feel disgusted over him - that because of his own ego and need he will do anything for himself at the end of the day.
How I am feeling? Haha.. i really do not know. I am just over it. I am freaking over it all. Done.
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