15-10-2020 23.30

 Hi Guys,

I have been through so much. I did not pass my two exams. I did not close my BA Education. Now everything is on pause. I lost him forever. I found out he for along time have talked to a girl about me.... you know when suddenly everything make sense. He has never been with me and my life, thats why he never saw me or had time to get to know me or paid attention to me. But thats okay. I am done for know. I asked God please make me realize or truelly for the last time see, that should I keep fighting or give him another chance or something .. and it went down to hell. I am okay, I truelly do not care anymore, legit.

I was with my family today, my sisters and Father. My mom were on vacation two weeks ago with me. Everything is okay I am okay.

Know I have to face my demons, and it is two get through my two exams in January 2021, and start my candidate at february 2021. I know I will get through because my Education is something I have always burned for. I know when I lost my aunty everything went down for me, I hated my life. My Secure point was with him, but my friend told me that all along my Secure point has always been in my self my own soul. I have two jobs, an good Education that I am going to finish, I am healthy, living by my self in foreing city. I have everything, i provide my own things and feed myself and do everything by myself. I am AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN!!!!!!

Know my life goal is:

Get through my two exams.

Get Rich

Get healthy 

Stay happy

Start living.