08-03-2017 - 21:16

Long time no seen .. I know.
It has been long time since I have been active on this page, but I was busy with everything .. School .. Family .. The "Guy" .. Friends .. Everything.
There is this boy who just turned 29, i had been struggling to get to know him and be with him. But today, when he draw by my place, I saw him in exact to minutes, he told me that he is busy, stressed out and struggling with his life, and I asked him with what? With fucking what? He told me, friends, work and sport???? Like wtf.

His head is so childish, I mean like a little kid, I do not know what to say ..
At first, he wanted me to be his, and he was litterally all up in my grill. Now, he is like so icecold, and careless he is like no where to be seen. And today, when I asked him? What is this we are doing? He was like, I am a busy man, I do many things, and I was like okay. Then he was like, I have not even seen my mom that much, I saw you more. The sad truth is, I saw him 10 min. in three days which he spended when he was back in town. Then he told me, he could not even see his other friends, and that stressed him out like??? what the FUCK.

But suddenly today, I realize, Girl? what are you doing, he is not hubby type, he is not at your level, he head and thoughts is anywhere but near yours .. And I am really going to, give up on him, because I am getting tierd to be the one who gives CPR to this "thing" I do not know what it is called.

I am just tired of everything, I can not do this anymore. I am just tired.
God help me please ...