I meet this guy. He saw me at my friends wedding, and chose to write to me. And I allowed him. He is 28 years old, and his birthday is 14 February. He lives in the same area as me, but his study has sent him away from here. But he comes here every second week. He is a kind hearted man, that goes to school and has a life. BUT he smokes weed. And that upsets me.
I lied to him, about what I was doing a Friday night, and he judged me hard. But now, we are not “together”. I have known him like about 2 months. And he was at first like, I come to you because my intentions are to get married to you, and I want you to have my kids. That’s something big!!!! I am like still a teen. And since I have been writing with him, I have tried hard to come on his level, to be like him. But the single little problem I made, he does not want to do anything with me. But when he was my age, he was the most fucked up person every. But it is okay now.
He made me feel in such way, no one made me feel, and trust me that felt good. My mood has been down in like 1 week. And finally I can see, the reason why I cannot move on, it is because of the thought that he made me feel special, he made me feel wanted, he made me feel alive and not missed. He made me feel like a woman.
But yeah .. I hope everything good for him. I am over him, almost. He learned me a lesson. He learned me, to try to avoid lies, try to avoid be dishonest. Because even a little lie, can give you surprises. And he learned me to, do not get attached to a boy/man while studying.
The most funny thing about this was, that I toke him as a joke. I was like okay … lets see. And then PUFF, everything was suddenly changing, I fell for him, but he was cold hearted ……… But yeah.
Thank you God.
Faith .. Life .. God ♥
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