20-10-2013 - 03:38

Just finished Gossip Girl Season 2.

I realized, that this "old" love kind of thing, I have been carrying it for a while .. Actually a really long time, without him knowing it. Without anyone knowing how big of sadness I have been carrying around, with a big smile on my daily basis. I will try by this 3.Grade Senior year, try to make him as small and as 0 as possible. Because, the adult life is begging about 6 months, and I cannot take my high school love anywhere. If by this 6 month there is no sign of him, I will forever delete him. Because as anyone says, if some things belong to me will somehow find a way back. And it did not happen. So .. this six month, I will try hard and absolutely try to forget him completely .. I don't know what kept me to keep hoping for you, I don't know what made me stop looking after other boys. But you were differently a special one. Anyways :-) .. Six months. Even though I know I should stop right now, but I am too good and sweetheart just to give the last shot .. Very very last shot.

Xoxo, Old high school love since 7th grade.