His birthday was October 15, literally 2 days ago. And all I wrote was "Happy Birthday, I wish it was well", and all he did was like the comment the day after. It is okay. I just do not understand, why I cannot forget the thought of him, or just move on? THIS IS A JOKE. I mean we do not even speak, see, have any form for contact with each other. Yet when I see him face to face i shed a tear, this makes no sense. He has nothing that I can hold on to. I do not know why I still manage him to control me, without him knowing it. I am afraid after 4 years this will continue and I will forever be cursed and stuck with the fact he never will be mine, and I never can move on. Omg, even know when I thinking and writing at the same time, I get sad and my eyes are full with tears. But what to do .. Really, what to do? This is out of control and at the same time ridiculous.
And by the way, I just started to see Gossip Girl. It is not that bad .... XOXO me // Haha
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