01-03-2014 - 08:56

I have not been so lucky in love, but I dreamed …

That I am hanging out with some friends, and I can see him behind me I pretend that I haven’t seen him I keep talking and laughing with my friends. Then he came beside he and looked at me, then I looked at him and look back to my friends. He said Hi and called my name. I looked at his face again and I saw that his face had been beaten. I took my hand and caressed his face, and asked him what happened. I stand on my toes and kiss his cheek. He said it is nothing and smiled at me and hugged me so tight. Then I said to him please do not do this to me and go away, and he said "To me? what have I done? Rejected to be with you? "Then I say, no not only that. You could have a connection with me. But you did even write to me, you did even think or texted me .. Then I got tears in my eyes and step one forward. Then he said you know Why I can’t be with you? I looked down and said, yes because you go to secondary school and party all day and you want to be free and hook up with bitches, smoke and get wasted. I have loved you since I said it to you, I struggle still every day to not think about you. Then he stepped forward and said, you always understand me, and yes it is all right. Then he hugged me from behind. I said I am not mad, I just hate that I feel this way when you are living your life, then the tears came into my eyes, I turned around closed my eyes and kissed his cheek again, and said “Be careful with yourself, I don’t want to lose you more than I already did” I turn around and I went away. He stood there and looked at me sadly ..