06-02-2022 09.12

 Hey guys,

Yesterday was the first time after a long time at the night life weekend was opened, because they have upliftet the rules regarding COVID-19. It was a blast time, because my friend was the DJ, and people that we hung out with was familiar so the enviornment was cute and cozy.

I came home late around 05.09 in the morning.. and then suddenly it hit me. The night life is not me anymore, not that I do not enjoy it, of course I did/do.. it is just. Looking around and seeing people, observing and see it.. I think I am at a point in my life, where I want to chill with my partner and settle down - talk about future. Somehow actually I have always been like that, but now.. I am strongly thinking about it. I want my partner of my own with my own babies.

I know it has been only me and SJA, me ex lover for about 6 years. But he got engaged around 28/29-12 2021, last year. I am thinking alot about him to be honest. It hurts me still like the thing happend yesterday, but they say what is your let it go to see where it goes.. I guess my fly away.. I am hardly trying to be okay with the current situation my life looks like. And a huge part of me I called home went away, so I had/have to reset my “home”, it is not easy.. Lets see what the future brings.

Thanks for always listen to the sound of my heart and soul you guys… <\3