Dear God,
So many thoughts and things are happening. I am very sad. I am thinking a lot. I am reflecting a lot. And to say, I have also my period. Hehe, so basically everything is more intense.
I am sleeping over at my friend's house because my family is in town. Thankfully, I just passed one of my exams. I am healthy and in need of nothing. But I am very sad. And my pharmacy internship is in my own town, thankfully - there is a lot of things I am getting blessed with, I know I deserve them. But I am afraid of getting too happy or celebrating anything.
There are so many unresolved issues I have in my head, myself. I am really afraid of getting a challenge that will throw me off course. I do not trust people. I am afraid of many things. I am afraid of getting tired. My breath, every single breath that I am taking right now feels so heavy... My life is on air. I am not grounded. I have not felt a single step of stability or silence in a long time. There is so much going on, I am literally living my life on a fast lane and are trying not to evolve feelings towards it, I do not know if I even should or should not. I do not know ...
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