Hi Guys,
I am still at my parents resident, ehmm... It has been the most chill week ever, and I have actually exams in two weeks, at 18. may, and a rhino-plastic fix operation again, because my last operation did not went well. It will take about 15 min. 20 min.
I feel alot calmer, in my soul and my brain. I had a night today, that I was with my ex again. Things were weird and he asked me how my training season went with the girls, and he suddenly said some names, and if felt that it were so specific, that I asked him were do you know her. And suddenly, I found out that he had cheated with one of the girls before he came to me, and I felt so disgust and hateful towards him. I hated him so much, I hated me more for let this happen one more time, I felt so numb and in chok, that why do I keep doing this to myself, why! Then my friends, came to me to cheer me up, and my bestfriend D, she told me everything in details, and how it happened, that he did not want to but she somehow made it happen, and then it all happen because of his firme, is a moving firm. And while his company were moving for her, her mother was so happy for him and her family were so in love with him and, everyone said that they were match made in heaven. When I woke up from my dream, I had the worst gut feeling in my stomach, I was numb, with no feelings, and every cell in my body hated him so much, my heart were pumping fast and I was just in chok.
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