25-04-2021 15.35

 Hi Guys,

I am at my parents. Sitting in the dinner room with my little sister, and reminiscing life and my situation.

Sometimes you have to either talk to a younger or elder, to be aware of other aspects of life, and not die in your vision of life. It is important to keep up the faith, and trust in God, destiny and proces, and believe that things happen for all the right reasons, even thought I can not see the reason why at the moment.

I swear alot of things have happened, I have been through heartbroken time, I did not have my eyes on the price regardin school, I most diffinetly did not care about my health and my apperance. It was the seriously the most darkest and cloudiest time of my life. I have been through good and bad challenges, I have had cried alot, and been sad most of the time, and I did not have any form of self-love or self-care, because what I lived for was just to please other to be there and be accepted. I am still under development, this road called life path, have hell of suprises and unexpected turn, for good or bad it is all for mine benefit. 

God I do not know if you can hear me, but I do not know what can of Me you want me to be. I know hard times will shape you, and make your mentality and the way you see life in a different way. And I believe at the right time, you will inform me why you did the things you did, but I swear it is not fucking easy.

My priorities have changes:

1. I want to be strong

2. I want to manage

3. I want to be expert at managing different problems at the same time

4. I want to be expert at being good to handling emotionel stuff

5. I want to be so strong, that I can handle anything. ANYTHING.