16-11-2020 00:35

 Hi Guys,

It is late at night. And the clock just told me it is my day. For exactly 24 years ago, I was born this day.

This day was when the Universe wanted me to be born, so I could be me today, in this exact moment. 

The first person who congratulated me was him. He wrote to me 15-11-2020 22:41. In his message, he wrote: ‘ Just wanted to write before I fell asleep. Happy Birthday tomorrow. Wish you the best. You are in my thoughts every day.

Guys, I was surprised he wrote. But I could feel him write to me about my Birthday. And guys the most interesting part is, that I did not even Exchange feelings or I did not even feel a thing. I was worried that he would write to me tomorrow “at my Birthday” but he did not. God, I really do not know what kind of test you are giving me. But the thing here is, that I actually could not care less. Everything that he put me through, throughout the past years, came to my mind in a split second. I am not even emotional or giving a damn. I am just numb and careless.. guys this is a really weird feeling because it is emptiness towards him, it's new for me. But I somehow like it, even though it feels foreign...

But I can feel God's wants to make my day tomorrow all about me and my happiness. So I will take it. I know he will not write to me anymore, because God made sure of that. And God Thank you. Maybe tomorrow will be another test, but I will definitely start med 24 years old with a happy smile on myself, with Him or without him, it. Doesn't. Even. Matter.

God, I have many wishes that I want to make become true.. and You know what I am talking about. And before I write them to you, or tell them. I want to make sure that I appreciate every single thing and every single detail of my life.

My wish list;

1. I wish to pass my two exams in January with a top grade of 12.

2. I wish to start at my master's in February.

3. I wish to make a lot of money.

4. I wish to see my family and friends happy.

5. I wish to get a new apartment.

6. I wish to stay happy and successful.

7. I wish him to have a good life, without me, and see him happy one day with Whatever he wishes in his life.

8. I wish to say busy with my life, joyful and energetic.

9. I wish to see my family successful, rich, and happy.

10. I wish every single person that I have to meet in my life to stay happy and get more blessed than ever.

#Amen #IloveYouGod #IloveYouUniverse