12-12-2019 03:50

Hi guys...
The reason I am writing right now, at this time is because .. I do not feel good or calm in my soul as I should have.
I know I need sleep but I thought about sharing my emotions with you guys.

I cried, because I feel like no one see or understands me. And I feel like a failure and not feeling that I should be at a higher stage and place as I had imagined myself be.

I feel like everything in my life is like meaningsless ..


I am starting to talk with him again, and he is somehow being more sweet that ever and much more. But do you know when you feel in your gut, that you just go with the flow towards him. I do not know how to feel, what to feel, what to do, what to say, what to not do or say or anything. I am just maiting my peace - but I do not feel like I have it.

I am just over it being sad or miserable. I am done literally.
I feel like the way we have an unique and randon ways makes us individual us, I feel like there is no common reason or thoughts about why us in this world, why do we each have our destiny or destination, why do some match make or some not.

How come some gets to live life like a good sweet movie, and some none ..
why is some so sensetive and some not even close, but they are hardcore
Why is some killing them selfves, and some do not want to do
why is people so different, and why are we like this .. ? All of this for what? For living a life we did not even choose for?