30-12-2018 19:40

So in 24 hours it is officaly 2019.

Let me tell first about everything happening since the last time i wrote.

He came back from his trip, which was Thailand - and since then I gave him his shoes and we kind of wrote back and forth .. And he had bought me some key-chains, that he want me to have .. and I do not want them because, the thing is .. In my mind, I have crossed him over, out of my family picture, out from being the father of my children, and out of having him in my life. The thing is you guys, some people never change .. because the way they are is how they were thought to be .. the things they do and the way they act is depending on who they where around when they were growing up, and how there parents raised them, and the most important one is role of both parents, the father and the mother .. to how to act right!

The things is .. yeah I felt for a man I though was A man, The Man, but he still is a Boy .. Two years with him .. and while having him on and off by my side .. I learned how to treat me, how to love me .. And in year 2019 I am going to build myself the life I always dreams of .. because it is going to be a year of me.

An for you God, I really do not know what you have planed for me .. But please help me to close the chapters that need to be closed...

Dear Universe, all I am asking for is you amaze me, and I can not wait to solve more battles and defeat them.

- Me