I feel so alone. Alone like no one understands me. I feel alone like, no one cares, only if i die. The only thing that is keeping me still alive is my university. Everyone is moved on with their life. No one is left to hold you spine.
I have so many things to think about .. To be honest, I need a someone to tell me that I am good at what I am doing. I need someone to believe in what I am doing. I need someone to say, "Hey .. you are doing okay - you will survive. You are cool. Keep fighting."
I am only like 20 years, and i feel so destroyed and half dead. I am turning 21 next month. And I know, there will be more challenges on the way - but I do not know if I can survive. I do not know, how my life will turn into.
Right now, I am a stranger in my own blood sisters home. I cannot be there, I do not feel at home.
The guy, I have been struggling with in a whole year, will not stay. I know I am holding him down, and allowing and begging him to not go. But I know, there will be a day, he will not be there anymore .. I am just preparing myself until that day. The next month, I am getting my own place - I have no money to survive. I have nothing ... I am going to school, and coming home 00.00 o'clock.
My friends there is biff between us .. I don't know - I can't anymore.
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