07-04-2016 - 22:21

First of all rest in pieces Uncle Daei 30-03-2016. May your soul and body rest in forever peace.

I think it is officially forever over between me and Ramo. I really think it is over. He wants me, but he does not keep fighting. I have done everything he wanted me to, changed myself, done thing I hate but for him, because he told me to. But he hasn't changed anything for me. First time I got to know him, he was into me. He wrote to me like 24/7, he wanted me, he was interested, he was different, he was someone my heart desired. But with time, he knew he had me, so he wrote, called and all that IF he got time. And before we were use to talk and sleep on the phone. But now, every time I got the chance at nights to talk to him and tell me about his day, he is falling to sleep. He is careless, but he say I am heartless I am giving up for nothing. That he can not change, because it is hard for him. He comes with so many excuses, it drives me insane. He kills me every time. Because my interest and love for him, I was willing to give up the world for him, but it was not the same from his side. Oh God, dear God please let me do not love again. I just do not want to go through hell again. This is so shitty... And now, I have to cry and feel bad and all that to let him fully go. I hate this feeling and situation, just hate .....