13-01-2014 - 19:20

I don't know if I should be careless. There is so many reasons that I can found to not care , but 1000 more reasons to do care. Sometimes my emotions they over reach, when they shouldn't. I don't know why, it's just the way I am built by the people I am surrounded by, and the "parents" who raised me. 

My birth mom she left 3 girls to my daddy. My daddy could feel that she was kind of unfaithful to him, so he decided to get a divorce, so our life couldn't get more damage. And since me and my sisters was little we didn't knew what was going on. So he sent us away to our aunt. My aunt raised me well, she is the reason I am who I am today, she taught me to be not just a girl or a woman, but a lady. She taught me everything a mom should taught her own daughter. I really do wish instead of my aunt, it was my real mom who learned me that much, but who can't be thankful for God's blessing. Specielly my one and only idol aunt ♥

Anyways, when i hear the whole story from my dads side, it sound like she only was married to him because he was a rich guy back then. My dad found/meet her at a café shop her aunt owned. Her aunt introduced my dad to her, and from there my dad asked her to get married to her because he could see that their hadn't the perfect life, or they weren't the richest. So my dad he decided to give her a hand and make her life to a paradise by getting married to her. And my dad he doesn't judge the way she look, but her soul and the way she is, basically her personality. But .. it turned up it was all wrong ...

If "The birth woman" who gave birth to me, if she loved me 0,5% she was willing to give everything up and see my maybe once at a month or week. I want to know why she decided to not see me anymore, like? doesn't she love me? Doesn't she want to see me? Or are you watching me without I can see you, because trust me i have so many unanswered questions only you can answer. I haven't heard your side of the story yet.

There is something that sucks in this situation .. I don't know who is talking the truth .. 

Holding on - Jeremih