06-11-2021 22.41

 Hey guys,

I am not feeling well today. It has been a good day, not because something happened - but you know sometimes you have does days that you do not feel well.

My emotions and my mental state are all around the place. There are so many small things that are happening, that I have chosen not to reach towards. My exam is 09-11 and 12-11. 13 there is this huge boxing muy thai event, and 12-11 I am joining a firm event. And my Madrid trip is 15-11. My birthday is 16-11...

I am trying to keep my head up, even though I am struggling with my family issues and my own emotional issues from my past. The air feels so heavy... But God I am trying to stay consistent because I have to. I know all of those struggles and obstacles are making me more hardcore and stronger... But damn it is not easy. Before I really wanted someone to lift some of my own baggage, but I know no one but myself am responsible for that. I am at my own place now, my family is back in their own town... It is getting darker, meaning there is not so much light time left because the season is changing. And we are in Scorpio season, meaning that there is a lot of deep and intense times ahead of us. Slowly after this, we are moving in Sagittarius time, where new beggings are about to come.

I hope at the end of the day, that we are all healthy and happy. I hope and wish for good times for everyone, every single human on this earth.

I am trying, still waking up just to fight for another day. Thank you for everything God, truly.