07-08-2021 21.54

 Hi Guys,

I just want to say.. that I found out that SJA is on vacation in Budapest and having the time of his life right now. Which made sense with why he was so careless when I called him I was so sad, I just wanted to talk to him and I need to hear his voice. He told me many very coldhearted sentences such as:

- Maybe you because of you cry is because you finally feel guilty regarding what you have put me through

- I can finally see I am not the problem, that's why I am sleeping all fine at night.

- I do not love you anymore, I am over you.

I am not it is not personal, but I need to cut everything that I can see that is attached to him. I need to get over it. This is not worth my tears, and time.. I believe I got the patience to reach my peace. I cannot wait to break free. I will be patient to get over it. I can feel in my soul, that there is not so much left for me to just throw his ass away from my life and feelings and everything completely.

I swear God, you guys .. I really mean this, I was wondering if he was on a vacation or trip. I could feel in my soul, that something was about to happen because he doesn't change himself if there is not something on the other side for him.