It is normal to still have some kind of hope for a lost love.
Right now I am listening to 'Love is A Gamle'.
God you know, that I will never do anything to people to hurt them. Or treat them like crap, or be rude or be disrespectful. God YOU know that.
I still love him man, damn. He wrote to me two days ago. And I just shutted our contact down. He were still the same, the relationsship I had with him is still the same. Everything is the same.
God is he my one and only? Or? It is not fair that he still hangs on to me, or he still maybe write to me because he wanted to get the "buttle" with me filled.
Today were my last exam, and I am waiting to get answer in to weeks. Please God, let me pass through. I really need it. I swear, I will do anything to get through those to exams that I just had.
My mind i so cloudy, I cannot see anything clearly.
I feel like I am still surviving. I do not feel anyone understand me, and I am okay with that. My thoughts right now i all over the place. I feel so funny, bizar and just wierd. I feel nothing.
You guys, I know my writing is wierd right now, but I can not categorize my thoughts and life or anything.
1. I really want to pass my two exams. I swear, PLZ God let me pass through, it is the only thing I am waiting for. I waited for it for three years, just for this moment. I swear my first and only wish from the buttom of my heart is to pass my exams...
2. I really want to have a good just, were I can make good money so that I can give it to my family, and myself.
3. Is to be happy and have control over my life.
Dear God, please let me.
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