I am at that point of my life, that I am tired of things that does not work out for me. If it want to stay or work, then so be it. If not, then go away.
SJA, i believe he loves me, and he really do cares for me. But he loves his friends, himself and his need more than anything - which I can not comprihend.
Dear God I am tierd of waiting for him to be the ready marerid guy, or the guy I feel I can relay on in time of need. Maybe I am too needy or too wierd, but God please help me and guide me making the right choice.
I am tired that nothing between me and him is functioning. I am tired of temporafy promises, I am tired of ego or selfishness. I am tired of everything that I do not desire.
So please God/Universe if me and his life is not destened to be with each other or together - please let him find his happiness els where. It is not fair if we keep repeating the same even dark circle - because I really Do love him - and because of my love for him, I will alway wish happiness upon his life and smile on his face even if it is with another person than me.
God please make it clear, if it is time for us to move on - let it happend. I am tired of playing cool and unbothered.
I love you S/JA. #4evaUrsMB
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