27-07-2018 00:26

Hey you guys.. I Saw him today, it was all quiet and wierd. I missed him, but have you ever had the rush of a feeling that - he is not mine and his faith and future does not belong to me, and somehow mine and his chapter is going to be finally over - and it made me wierd and sad about it. Because once he was my baby, my babyboo, my heart!!!!!!

.. our thing did not work... there was just no trust, and there was more Lust and everything els, lies, cheating everything els... I do not want to write about it.. i just want to say, Where every you go from now I hope, God see you and has your back. 

I wished right now you were my man - i love you imperfection and everything and - I do not know why I suddenly are so sad. I am crying like hell, busting in years - because i really can feel I have to let you go, even the last strain attached - i have to let it go.

I had a good day. I do not know why I am crying so much....

God you work in mysteriet ways, but I feel like I deserve to be happy.. I am waiting and trying to maintane my position for being ready for the next challeng. God I love you/ at the end of the day i am Blessed.

They say, if its meant to be it will be.

They say, let it go and it will come back to you if it is yours.

Oh Lord.. im trying.